just go. by cherrie (july.08.09)

I want to go away.
Far,
far,
far from where I am vulnerable of pain and hurt.
Is forgetting a sin?
Forgiving?
And living the way I want it to be?
Thought I was the only one, the only girl you’ll ever love and cherish.
This never came into my mind until now.
That infidelity is your twin.
Now, you can never gain my trust.
I [...]

After Sleep

After sleep
by cherriejoyridegoesgaga
Worst,
My life is always the same,
I cry,
I fall,
I stand,
Again,
My life isn’t so right,
I smile,
I laugh,
Yet I cry again,
I wanted to see me,
Stable with my happiness,
Stable with my feelings,
Not hurting myself,
Leave,
I left everything unfinished,
My life,
My love,
Ang my suffering,
So heavy,
The burden I made for myself,
Yet I blame,
I’m scared,
I hide,
Im afraid to see,
That everything I did [...]

Banal hangalan

“BanalHangalan”
by cherriejoyridegoesgaga
isang buong araw kang nasa sambahan,
di lang linggo kundi pati ordinaryong araw pa,
tingin mo langit ang patutunguhan,
o balak mo bang lagpasan ang nakatataas?
sa sampung banal na araw,
ikaw ay nagbabanal-banalan,
kunwari’y malinis sa mata ng madla,
ngunit uling sa itim naman ang kulay ng puso,
ginagawa mong hangal ang nakapaligid sayo,
gumawa nga ng mabuti sabi mo,
paglabas mo naman [...]

manong grasa

“Manong Grasa”
by cherriejoyridegoesgaga
binalot ng uling at alikabok ang balat,
ang dating kayumanggi’y naging itim,
siya si manong grasa,
sa kapirasong damit siya’y kuntento na,
minsan nga wala pang salawal,
ang tsinelas niya ay ang kalyo sa paa,
siya si manong grasa.
wala sa kanyang sariling diwa,
palakad lakad lang sa lansangan,
saan ba siya patutungo?
hindi ko ala, hindi natin alam.
minsan naitanong ko sa sarili [...]

illusion

“illusion”
 Alone and out of my mind,
Thinking of all the things I’ve done,
And the things you’ve done to me,
Blinded and never saw a light,
I was here walking alone,
You’re never with me from the start,
I’m all by myself and so are you.. 
My heart aches,
As I realize you’re just an illusion,
You came to life for me,
Destroying and breaking [...]