Then , you asked me to be with you .

It was supposedly the end of my nightmare and the end my loved one’s nightmare .

I thought everything will be back to normal , as in completely normal .

without him, bugging my mind and heart .

then there’s Wednesday of – august 12 09- ,  he texted me a single word which was annoying for me to reply the same word with smiley .

I don’t know if I’m glad that he texted or I’m just used to texting while doing other things , I wasn’t waiting for his reply either because , he is , as always , seasonal. Today we’re ok then after we don’t know eachother again . I know he’s using my company as a past time and I don’t care either because I can ignore him whenever I want to .

I’m not too attached , (see : last years event in august) , to him.

It’s just too weird for me not to notice that he asked me to go to his house at night . . . thinking that I don’t know where he lives and what’s his purpose . he’s too weird this days , there he was at the school saying hi, smiling , then suddenly , his friends has this stare of teasing me as his girl . uggghh! I’m so sick of being that girl , his “chick”, because I don’t want to be anymore . once is enough and I’m glad that I never gave him another chance , another chance of kissing and holding me so tight . because that day , I wanted to burry myself alive .

Every time I have a problem with my bf, he is always there at the right time , right mood and right situation . I don’t know if God really allow him to test my fidelity again , or He wanted something to happen, see : blessing in disguise . . . I know he’s not for me , and I’m not, too , for him . I am too much for him & he’s not enough for me .. .

Melvin is just right , I know , but we still need some adjustments.