a thousand promises and millions of chances doesnt work anymore.

i was blinded by the movies like “my sassy girl” a korean movie, by the lake house and the book of twilight saga knowing that unconditional love exist for humans or like waiting endlessly with someone you know that you would grow old with. its the kind of fairytale i have been expenting to be more applicable with my life but… time cant tell when your path doesnt go my way. we have been controlling our destiny since we started, and i can’t deny that we “cheat”. knowing that this kind of something wont do anything for the future but we kept on trying to give the very best just to achieve such love story/movie.
mistakes happen… cheating, lying, forgiving, regretting, hurting physically and emotionally…
sins happen… chances, promises, more chances, more promises..
but the more we commit this mistakes and sins the more we dont want to let go.
Its like yosi that gives us a little cure for being tense. Its like liquor that numbs the pain for one night and its like sex that gives you self-gratification for 30 minutes… and after this sin products? You still find yourself asking ask for more because it never satisfy your soul.

Crying had been the product of my anger/loneliness to the world because the more I ignore it the more they come close to me. Its like having a negative polar and positive polar…

I tried to give every needs and wants just to show unconditional love, but here’s all I got:

Ring… Ring… Ring… Ring… Ring… The subscriber you are calling cannot be reach.

How I wish I could extend my expectations and patience just to let them know how much I care for them. How much I wanted to be with them.

All I could do right now is to set limitations and conditions and even a deadline in order to avoid more mistakes and sins.